So it’s been a while…
I guess I should explain where I’ve been. The past three months (almost four) have been a bit of a slog and a whirlwind all at the same time. I’ve been busy and not so busy.
For those that don’t know, like a lot of people I suffer from mental health issues. I won’t go into too much detail, y’know. Privacy and everything. But to put it gently, I hit a bit of a mental-low. Not exactly depressed, but just feeling really lethargic and “cannot be bothered”.
For a few weeks I let myself wallow. Let myself feel my emotions, not get out of bed, not do any work. But then I picked myself back up. And I made a huge decision.
I’ve decided to go back to university.
I guess many could see this coming. In 2018, I graduated university with a Second Class Honours Degree in music. That was a whole calamity of issues that deserves a blog post on its own. But putting all that aside, I never really did anything with the degree. Yes, I can play a few instruments. Yes, I can compose music for video games. And yes, when actively listening to music, I can pick it apart and name musical theory terms.
But, that isn’t helpful in the real world.
For a long time, I denied myself the thought of working with computers due to a fear of not being smart enough. But last year, I turned 30 and finally had something click in my brain.
You don’t have to be smart enough. You just have to be enough.
Anyway, I’ve word vomited enough. If you’re going to take anything way from this post, if you’re afraid of doing something that can help achieve your dreams.
Maybe, just do it?